"IF I KNEW"

If I knew, well then I wouldn't have to ask

If I knew, I wouldn't have to take myself to task

If I knew, I'd finally find a way to rest

If I knew, perhaps I'd finally do what's best

If I knew a way to finally put down all this pain

I would do whatever it would take and not complain

And then you, you wouldn't have to hear as I explain

What you knew I couldn't bear to go through all again

It's a joke; and a sick one leaves you laughing all the more

When you spoke, you knew that I had heard it all before

But you knew, as sure as something falls when you let go

If I knew, I couldn't bear it, knowing what I know